http://voxlunch.tumblr.com/post/98713865733/this-became-kind-of-freeform-musing-so-i-hope-you

voxlunch:

This became kind of freeform musing, so I hope you enjoy:

I followed some clickbait today into one of those heartwarming triumph over adversity stories about a woman with no legs who became a champion acrobat. And when it was over I felt like an awful person as I thought to myself:

Yes, just…

The beginning of the process. This is me, how I am today. I am depressed. Bitterly miserable. Struggling with feeling of abandonment. Overwhelmed by jealousy and rage. So anxious and caught up in the future that I cannot exist in the present. So negative that the man I love can’t stand to be with me any longer. This is where I start. Now, where will I go?

The beginning of the process. This is me, how I am today. I am depressed. Bitterly miserable. Struggling with feeling of abandonment. Overwhelmed by jealousy and rage. So anxious and caught up in the future that I cannot exist in the present. So negative that the man I love can’t stand to be with me any longer. This is where I start. Now, where will I go?

How does one change their way of thinking? Where do you began to change a lifetime of patterns? To alter behaviors learned from others? To change conditioned beliefs collected from experiences? To repair the damage unrealistic expectations from media and culture has caused? What is the first step you take?

Change is my nemesis. Well played Life, well played.

vonnylicious:

fairhies:

If I reply with “oh” I either don’t give a fuck or I feel like i’ve been punched in the throat

basically

(via ladyevealyn)

when you start having a good convo and then you say something awkward/embarassing

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